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We Must Not Give Up

It seems negative circumstances keep finding me, but I’ll make it again as hard as it is some days as my blog clearly shows struggles and small victories. For today I decide to keep moving forward and no matter the day’s results I’ll continue taking those baby steps and fighting. I’m persistent, strong, courageous and… Continue reading We Must Not Give Up

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Breathe in or Breathe out    

I’m getting too old for any games life throws my way. Too tired mentally. I’ve not bothered to truly tell anyone my actual thoughts, it will stay that way, though people probably see me as easy to read. I’m not. I have a question that no one can or will be able to answer, with… Continue reading Breathe in or Breathe out    

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Varied Thoughts…

I once looked out the window on a sunny mild day I thought, there is nothing out there for me It appeared an empty void A painting that I couldn’t wish to be in I once looked out the window on a sunny mild day There was no color in my eyes A grey existence… Continue reading Varied Thoughts…

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Life can throw A blow

I thought I was done with getting everything I could, in sickness and pain. I’ve not lived the best and healthy. The multiple overdosing, the last being lithium and that was a disaster in itself. I can only say positive words that I’ve lost a lot of weight. I’ve learned just how important the little… Continue reading Life can throw A blow

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Beauty of A Dream

Tick tock, the clock hands rotate on this “possible” day. Will the sound ever stop? The pendulum moving right then left. I close my eyes tight out of pure insanity settling in my brain. STOP, STOP I scream! Then the sound of shattering glass. It came at me in slow motion with every shard slicing… Continue reading Beauty of A Dream

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The Lost one

My heart beats for everyone else but myself. Is that self centered to want to live for yourself? I ask this question in prayer, and ask that He lead me to my purpose, and to make me a better Christian/person. I am a lost person just wandering, hoping everyone I come in contact with is… Continue reading The Lost one