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Recycling Hopelessness

The new year is right around the corner and I’ve no hope today. I can’t think clearly or feel comfortable in any way. More than anything I just want to be rescued. I want that little girl’s dream of being cuddled and taken care of as a woman. I want someone to stand in front… Continue reading Recycling Hopelessness

bipolar · Borderline · Depression · God · hope · living · Suicide

Sing Me a Song of Truth

Unending darkness. Where has all the light gone? God please put me out of this pain. 5 months have been thrown out of my window. I thought, rather hoped, that I’d regain my strength. Instead I find myself beat. I find myself slipping, falling, no one reaching for me, into the hole designed for a… Continue reading Sing Me a Song of Truth

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An Epic Burnout 

Another night when the monster creeps into my head before trying to sleep. A wait, until the sleeping pill kicks in because the insomnia and that monster will keep me up to fill my head with dangerous thoughts and commands; sometimes for days with an hour of rest here and there.  I know life was… Continue reading An Epic Burnout 

bipolar · Borderline · Depression · hope · living · love · Other · Suicide

The flickering Candle

I’ve learned and have had a new insight on my life since I hit about 33 years old. Now, it has only been a few/ several years since then but it’s a strange cathartic experience. It’s sort of the time I finally understood the advice my parents gave me and the value. A time when… Continue reading The flickering Candle