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An Epic Burnout 

Another night when the monster creeps into my head before trying to sleep. A wait, until the sleeping pill kicks in because the insomnia and that monster will keep me up to fill my head with dangerous thoughts and commands; sometimes for days with an hour of rest here and there.  I know life was… Continue reading An Epic Burnout 

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The flickering Candle

I’ve learned and have had a new insight on my life since I hit about 33 years old. Now, it has only been a few/ several years since then but it’s a strange cathartic experience. It’s sort of the time I finally understood the advice my parents gave me and the value. A time when… Continue reading The flickering Candle

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Dear love, Will You Answer?

I’ll start here. For days I’ve been dealing with severe depression, maybe it’s been weeks, I don’t know. Days blur as well as nights and I forget where I am because the monster living in my brain eats away at me. I get fully invested in this redundant, narcissistic, psychological agony. This is all a… Continue reading Dear love, Will You Answer?